He Got Married (and it sure wasn't me)

It's a bit unsettling to find out that an ex-love of your life got married.  Not in a "I wish it had been me" sort of way because as much as I thought I had wanted just that while I was with him, there's is no way I would have been able to turn a blind eye and play dumb about how he was for very long but more in a "I wonder when it'll finally happen for me" kinda way.  It almost did but life had another plan.  Now, I just wonder if I should keep holding onto that dream of mine.  Sometimes, it bothers me.  Other times, it's a comfort.  Who knows because I sure as hell don't.